At A Loss

There are many things that I’m at a loss for…home repairs, car repairs, spreadsheets, algebra, Honey Boo Boo…

I have no comprehension or aptitude for any of these things. I’m at a complete loss. And there’s one thing that really tops them all. I have no idea what to do with it.

Free time.

If it’s planned, then I’m ok. I’ll just take a nap. But if it’s sprung on me, I’m as helpless as a lost child. I don’t have much practice with it. I work 2 jobs so each day is wall to wall schizophrenia until the Energizer Bunny dies and I collapse in bed.

It happened the other day. Plans got changed at the last minute and I was too far away from any napping spot. I had several hours to spare. Oh boy…so awkward.

But then I considered a fact that confounds and confuses me even more than how to kill time.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16).

Unbelievable. I have a one and only son and I wouldn’t give him up for anyone or anything. You would have to pry him from my cold, dead hands. And then I will haunt you from my grave.

But to sacrifice your son for this world? This world? Have you turned on the news lately? This world is crazy. Over the waterfall. It’s amazing. Yes, it is.

Amazing grace.

And I’m glad. I’m one of the crazy people in the world who God loved so much to save through His Son. I just don’t get it.

These are the things I ponder from my corner seat at Zoe’s Kitchen while killing time.